Twice a Roman soldier

I dreamed the 10th of November that I was a Roman soldier called Cyrus and in the dream there was some confusion to whether I was really Roman or Greek my dreamself didn't know how to interpret it. Our troops were wondering somewhere around the area of present day Belgium and there was something going on about Celts causing problems from the distance. My dreamself had a discussion with a friend of mine from this life. In the dream she got burned sort of at a stake and it had something to do with the Celts, but I didn't feel she was Roman in that life... My past self was uncertain and maybe even shy by nature, not very much a warrior type at all. I also remember seeing a big man carrying a large backpack-type of thing when in another scene our troops were walking on a shoreline. My past self was worried and sad for him and asked if he was ok, but the man just reassured he was fine, even though it was obvious he was straining himself.

I always thought the Celts were a British thing, but according to history they seem to have been around Belgium. I also found a very intriguing piece of information from Wikipedia: "According to Julius Caesar, the ancient Celts practiced the burning alive of humans in a number of settings."

Later last year I saw another dream that I was Roman and "the Italians" were attacking our side. I was again a soldier inside the 2nd or 3rd floor of a building. The uniform was different from the dream where I was Cyrus. There was a battle where so many of other soldiers from our troops died. I remember that first wave cornered me emotionally to take cover while the others were dying. I managed to survive. Then, from a large window space, there came a man with his hands raised in the air. He asked me not to kill him and he told me he was just a simple merchant selling wine which he had with him. He bargained me with his wine which did interest me, but I bought naught. I sent him on his way. Only a few moments later I realize the man was a scout to see how many men we had and what kind of a building it was that we had for our troops. Not too long after that armed men started to flood in from the window. I had my short sword and I decided to use it. It was all to my surprise that I didn't instantly die (in fact in the dream the moment of death or injury was never shown). I remember my past self cutting the blade to a man's neck and how it took actually more than one tries to cut the head off. I didn't want to leave them suffering, but there was also a spontaneous burst of curiosity for how that would feel and believe that on some level my past self did enjoy it. The dream stopped before the battle was over. 

I soon Googled if there was any sense at all to this dream. It sounded odd to me that "the Italians" were "attacking Rome". But indeed, it looks like in the 14th and 15th century there were battles where the Italians did attack Rome. 

"The First Italian War, sometimes referred to as the Italian War of 1494 or Charles VIII's Italian War, was the opening phase of the Italian Wars. The war pitted Charles VIII of France, who had initial Milanese aid, against the Holy Roman Empire, Spain, and an alliance of Italian powers led by Pope Alexander VI." 

"In the 14th and 15th centuries, northern-central Italy was divided into a number of warring city-states, the rest of the peninsula being occupied by the larger Papal States and the Kingdom of Sicily, referred to here as Naples. Though many of these city-states were often formally subordinate to foreign rulers, as in the case of the Duchy of Milan, which was officially a constituent state of the mainly Germanic Holy Roman Empire, the city-states generally managed to maintain de facto independence from the foreign sovereigns that had seized Italian lands following the collapse of the Western Roman Empire. The strongest among these city-states gradually absorbed the surrounding territories giving birth to the Signorie, regional states often led by merchant families which founded local dynasties. War between the city-states was endemic, and primarily fought by armies of mercenaries known as condottieri, bands of soldiers drawn from around Europe, especially Germany and Switzerland, led largely by Italian captains.[51] Decades of fighting eventually saw Florence, Milan and Venice emerged as the dominant players that agreed to the Peace of Lodi in 1454, which saw relative calm brought to the region for the first time in centuries. This peace would hold for the next forty years."

I find it intriguing there was some similarity between these two lives even though my personality traits seemed quite different from each other. Time will tell if any other information from these two lives comes forth in the future and how they may affect my current life. This is also one of the rare occasions I've discovered my past incarnation's name. 

Finnish Civil War 1918, part 1

I just had a session with the spirit world by using pendulum and clairvoyance/clairknowing as my tools. I had an intention to ask about something quite serious, just a simple one-question try for my spirit guide. I did get my answer later, but first on I had someone different coming and he told that he couldn't answer the question I had suggested.

It was one of my spirit teachers. It took less than a second that he was swinging my pendulum swiftly and became clear to me that he was coming from one of my past lives and we had known each other. The connection is usually not this fluent in the beginning, but I can understand why it came to us (me and the spirit) so easily today. There's basically two reasons:

1) I just came from a mediumship demonstration (I think that's what they are called in UK, but in Finnish it's just a "meediotilaisuus", which I think describes it better). It is a more or less well known fact that attending to medium sessions, opens the receivers psychic/mediumship gifts sometimes and it isn't really a rare thing to happen. I personally didn't get a message this time, because it went to other people there (there were about 50 people attending this demonstration), but just as the medium Maila Marttinen said, all our spirit guides were strongly present there today and even without getting a message, many of our loved ones were there too, close to our auric field (actually inside it), us being mostly open to their energies. I believe I stayed open for these energies for hours, because straight after the demonstration I went out with my two friends and we talked about deep spiritual questions. This is something that actually does help keeping us open to the spirit world.

2) On my way home I found that one question-worthy reason to hold a seance/session for myself so I asked my spirit guide would be there waiting for me. I asked for protection and guidance and gave the spirit world some time to accommodate to my wishes.

So here's what I discovered about this spirit teacher who came meeting me. He used to be my little brother in my past life in Finland. I was born at some point before the turn of the century and lived to witness our war of 1918. I had five siblings: Only one of them was a girl, but she died very young. When the war came, both of our parents and both our grand parents were dead. This little brother who came to teach me was 6 years younger than me, but I wasn't the oldest son. We used to fight a lot.

To my relief, he told me that we had cleared our karma from that life long before my present life and he wouldn't incarnate as anyone around me in this life. This is actually a little rare to my experience. Those who've been pointed out in my past life readings have been usually incarnated as my family or friends in this life. Anyway, I don't think anyone should now start to believe that it was or wasn't common our family members from past lives didn't incarnate close to us again in this life. I believe all paths exist in this one.

One of the interesting things is that I had thought I was a chauffeur from my trade. It seems I was a little wrong, but also right. I have been aware for a few years, that around 20's I was in doings with cars and richer people and I was a male and a person of lower income. This came to me in a past life reading a very dear friend of mine did to me. A couple of years later I had a sudden realization that my car driving phobias had come from that specific life. I was able to understand that I had been in a car accident in that life and when it happened, I was the one behind the wheel. I thought I was older when all that happened, but now my little brother from that past life told me I had been a teenager back when it happened. He also told me no-one died, but at least one person was left (severely) handicapped.

There was something that had boggled me about that life before the 20's... I had an impression that I had been to America, when later on I started to have strong signs I had been at that time a Finn attending our war. I've been speculating if I was one of those, who moved to America. But it didn't quite fit with my experiences... If I had been to America, it would've also meant that I moved back to Finland as well. When I asked about this from my little brother, he said he wouldn't be allowed to answer my question at this point.

I've been careful with unfolding this past life and it seems that it will keep on unfolding itself at it's own pace. In the next part of this past life study, I'm going to describe the dreams I've had from this time. I haven't seen too many clear past life dreams, but these came to me easily, with less symbolism confusing the facts. This is something that makes my life of 1918 even more curious for me.